Keep The Faith Necklace

If you read Tuesday’s post, you know I was super-psyched for 1/11/11. Given my affinity for the number 11, it was a power day, I figured. Well, it did turn out to be a HUGE day for me – for reasons I never expected. 

You know the book I’ve been working on for three years? The one that’s mere weeks away from hitting the presses? The one that’s due out on my birthday – 10/11/11? The one with the perfectly perfect cover and gorgeous design?

Yeah, well, that book got a pink slip on 1/11/11.The email from my publisher arrived at 9:48am with the subject line “unfortunate news.” I figured maybe they didn’t get the book into a major chain. Or maybe the publication date got pushed back again. I did not expect to see these words when I opened the email: 

Liv, I announce this with a heavy heart, but I am afraid we are going to have cancel the publication of Choosing Beauty. 

I stared into space. And then read it again. More staring. And blinking. 

Turns out my publisher is getting out of the business of publishing books. All of a sudden. And that leaves little room for…publishing my book. Just last week, we were working on publicity and final details. Just last week, I shipped the galley off to Wayne Dyer to invite (a.k.a. beg) him to write the foreword. I was starting to fantasize about details of my big book release party. And today…I still am. 

Stay with me, people. After I read that email, I sat motionless for about 60 seconds, breathing deeply (okay, hyperventilating). And then, something happened: I caught myself on the brink of a freak-out and decided not to go there.  What good would a panic attack, tears, added drama do for the situation? Nothing. I felt a deep sense of calm come over me. It was like getting a warm bear hug from someone I couldn’t see (perhaps the book deal angel!?) and I knew in that moment that it would all work out. 

Here’s my reasoning. I have a book that’s 99.9% done – text, design, even the back cover is complete. It’s so pretty. And it’s pretty inspiring, too. I really, truly think you’ll love it. My publisher and the designer are willing to let another publisher take it on. Maybe this isn’t a roadblock, but a detour –  an invitation to find an even better home for my book, perhaps even this year. 

It’s a strange place to be – starting from scratch with a finished book. But I actually feel kind of excited. And empowered. And so supported by lovelies like you. And, believe it or not, I feel like this so-called “unfortunate news” may actually be a giant gift. I hope you’ll stick with me and I wait to see how it all unfolds…